Everyday I usually tell myself that I ain't shit. That I'm a loser, most of the trash people talk is just confirmation to what I'm already thinking. "I don't wanna live no more, sometimes I hear death nocking at my front door" - Biggie
Ever since I didn't answer the phone when Sharon hit me up, and that same night she well you already know. I'll have nights where I need to talk on the phone. Tonight's one of those nights but nobody's answering.
Feels like I've been holding everything in, I'm in love with a girl but she's not my girl. We treat it like the biggest secret in the world, and honestly I don't like that. Reminds me of me and misses V, except I pretend that I'm with a good girl this time. Like F the truth, I'd rather live in my own blind state of mind and be happy then face reality right now.
I train hard because I assume I have no talent and need to work for every inch. Nothing's ever good enough. Everybody is better then me.
I would do anything for anybody, But I feel like ya'll spit in my face sometimes. All I can do is prepare myself, train and work hard to be the best that I can be. I wish I had somebody to hold me down, but I can't worry about all that. I can go in on myself, I can bring myself down, but at the end of the day I gotta stay strong and focused.
You can hate me, you're allowed to hate me. I'm allowed to hate me. But always remember, I love you.
Dru-P
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