The Other Side

Alright so there are two sides to every story. Two sides to every coin, or however that saying goes. I don't really get the opportunity to vent, that often. If I have drama I handle it, the whole world doesn't need to know.

I guess, everytime I have drama with the old (young) lady, she tells all her friends about it. So then I hear her guy friends telling her, "Just break up with him" or "He's not worth it", and then saying, "Come over." Or some crazy shit like that. Her girls tell her the same thing. But those bitches need to look in the mirror, everytime they get drunk they get emotional. They're single, and like they say, misery loves company.

I don't feel threatened by her guy friends, or those girls either. I just feel a little disrespected that they would put my name in their mouth. None of them know me, they don't know what I've been through, they don't know what I put up with, or do every single day. They just hear the bad and think they can disrespect me by putting my name in their mouth. Fuck yall.

I work my ass off. Every single day I let my girl know that she's loved, I spoil her. I love her.. There's good and bad, but mostly good in our relationship. When people start rumors, or just speak on me in a negative light. I ask you, what the fuck have you done in your life?

Like Atoine Ego said in Rattatouille,

"We thrive on negative criticism, which is fun to write and read. But the bitter truth we critics must face, is the average piece of junk, is probably more meaningfull then the criticism designating it so."

or in the words of Kanyeezy

"Tell the critics they can kiss my whole ass, oh I'm an asshole? Ya'll ni***s got joooooookes"..

or in the words of Jay-Z, "Fuck the other side, they jealous."

I know that in this world there are a lot of snakes in the grass. But sometimes it feels like everybody around me is a hair from Medusa. The creeps are going to creep. But step your game up at least, make up some more believable rumors. Some of you so called friends, need to get a life, or something. Work on yourself, before you feel the need to F my ish up.

I don't want to speak on my girl negatively. She deserves more then to be put in peoples mouths. I want everybody to see her as amazing as I do. Sorry I got kind of distracted and caught up on her friends, and didn't really tell much of my side of the story. I guess I'm just trying to say I love her, and if you're against that in any way.. Fuck You



Dru-P Signing Out

Happy New Year

So 2010 was pretty much the shizzle.. Started off with youuuu knowww, then it got better. Finished my album "Nuchalawoyya" which besides track 2 came out exactly how I imagined it. I didn't market it or sell it how I should have, but I can work on selling it more in 2011.

I left EWU on top of the world, pretty much felt like the whole school was showing me love. Guess that's what happens when you're Van Wilder haha. They seen me down and brought me back up before I left. When I came back to Alaska, all of the kings horses and all of the kings men couldn't put humpty back together again.

I came back and was way out of shape, everybody clowned until I lost like 20 pounds, which may have came back this winter lol. I took a loss at the World Eskimo Indian Olympics, for the first time in like five years. But it's all good I deserved to lose..

Also I started playing basketball again this summer, and even though I don't have my handles like I used to, my shot's probably better then it used to be. Other then all of that I got a girlfrannnn. She's my baby baby bumpersticker doodleskins and I looove her. :) :) My Poca Poca.

Ummm.................. in 2011 I plan on getting back in shape, learning to cook, doing at least 1 mixtape, getting a better job, and all of that goot shtufff.. Mad at the world, while I'm Wishing ya'll a Happy New Year.. haha hope ya'll have a good one.

Shout out to C-Lay, Rodney Stuckey, Ant Shears, Kenny D, Mike D, Mike B, K Geezy, My family, and all of the cuzzos.

Dru-P

Can't Sleep

"I don't wanna live no more, sometimes I hear death nocking at the front door,

I'm living every day like a hustle, another drug to juggle, another day another struggle"

-Notorious B.I.G.

Not exactly how I feel, but sometimes it's like the whole world is against you.

I have a poster from a Kanye West album on my wall. The poster is of a bear being

shot from a cannon, and the bear looks so free. The bear is on that spaceship.

Sometimes I look at that bear with envious eyes. Like the words of Kanye,

"Wait until I get my moneyyyy righhhht, then you can't tell me nothing rigggght."

"To whom, much is given, much is tested."

If I was that bear I'd probably crash into a building, or everybody around me would construct some kind of net to catch me. I'd be like one of those slow dogs thinking I escaped, when really I'm about to hit the end of the chain and choke myself. Really though, to whom, much is given much is tested. At the same time, I'm always free.

I've been getting calls from employers, all they do is brag about me, sometimes they call me overqualified. So I walk away from interviews feeling on top of the world, and then a couple of days later I never get a call back. Yup Yup.. Pretty full of win.. I respond by pretending to not care about money, because in my mind I'm on that spaceship.

The other thing that's been killing me, is making the same mistakes over and over again. I'll just tell myself I'm right, riiiiiiight.

Well anyways, Goodmorning.. Goodnight..

Dru-P

Random thoughts

People ask me how I stay so humble, how I don't hold my accomplishments over other people's heads. How I don't look down on others. Honestly it's the same reason why I'm single.

Everyday I usually tell myself that I ain't shit. That I'm a loser, most of the trash people talk is just confirmation to what I'm already thinking. "I don't wanna live no more, sometimes I hear death nocking at my front door" - Biggie

Ever since I didn't answer the phone when Sharon hit me up, and that same night she well you already know. I'll have nights where I need to talk on the phone. Tonight's one of those nights but nobody's answering.

Feels like I've been holding everything in, I'm in love with a girl but she's not my girl. We treat it like the biggest secret in the world, and honestly I don't like that. Reminds me of me and misses V, except I pretend that I'm with a good girl this time. Like F the truth, I'd rather live in my own blind state of mind and be happy then face reality right now.

I train hard because I assume I have no talent and need to work for every inch. Nothing's ever good enough. Everybody is better then me.

I would do anything for anybody, But I feel like ya'll spit in my face sometimes. All I can do is prepare myself, train and work hard to be the best that I can be. I wish I had somebody to hold me down, but I can't worry about all that. I can go in on myself, I can bring myself down, but at the end of the day I gotta stay strong and focused.

You can hate me, you're allowed to hate me. I'm allowed to hate me. But always remember, I love you.

Dru-P

Negativity

What I've come to realize is I thrive off of negativity. When I first went to EWU we had an asshole coach, everyday in practice he'd have something crazy to say to me.

He would say "You're not in high school anymore."
"Welcome to D-1"

If I wasn't doing good in a work out "Dru go run with the girls!!"

Then when I did good instead of praising me I'd hear him ball everybody else out for losing to me.

I loved that shit, everyday I just wanted to prove to him and myself that I could run and do well at that level. I put in work, then at the end of the year he said "Dru lose 10 pounds or your off the team"..

That's when I left the team for a while, I think that right there might of messed my head up.

When I came back to Alaska recently from Washington, everybody was like "Dam Dru, you got fat", "What you ain't running anymore?", "Looking pretty healthy Dru." and so on.. It's alright if the cousins clown me or people I'm close to, but when people I don't know come up and start saying that ish it started to piss me off. I used it as motivation, and laughed it off for a month.

Worked hard and lost 15 to 20 pounds in a month, and then people were still clowning. That's when it got crazy for me because I been putting in work and ya'll are still teasing me? I wanted to respond "Dam you got ugly" when somebody said "Dam you got fat" haha.. It almost made me want to be a hater myself.. Even the cousins got tired of hearing me get clowned on, like aiight jokes over..

But at the same time I love that, I use it.. It makes me want to work hard everyday, push myself. I don't know what kind of shape I'm in right now, but I know I've been working hard. I can look in the mirror with no shirt on and be like 50% happy right now haha. halfway superman..

It all comes back around, people are starting to show me love right now. And that has me missing the negativity almost. I assume my competition is better then me, in better shape, working harder. Out of every race there is only 1 winner, winning isn't normal, so why should I try to be normal.

Teachers would make fun of my work, they would roast me. Because they said I could take it, and if they used others as an example they would probably break down. Negativity is a gift and a curse. Nothings ever good enough, all you can do is try to find perfection in the imperfections. But that never works for me, I thrive in the storm. Bring me drama, make me feel worthless, and I'll love you forever.

Dru-P

Thoughts on Nuchalawoyya

Nuchalawoyya thoughts- track by track

Intro-

This is an athabascan prayer said by Helen Peters. I originally wanted the Nuchalawoyya song to be sang, but I had issues getting people together, and I thought the prayer had more impact. When she first said the prayer something went wrong with the computer and it kind of made her voice go in slow motion, sounded scary. Glad I got it fixed hahah.

Back Again-

At this time the chorus still needs to be redone for this song, I'm debating on what I'm trying to do for the chorus. In Back Again I say "After the storm we tried to see the sunlight, who would of knew Mary Edwin's son was so bright, but too much sunshine ain't always pleasant, without the rain you're just left with a desert." There's a lot in those 4 lines, basically referencing our first 2 albums, "After the Storm", "See the Sunlight", saying that I'm shining now, but I can't always shine, can't always be all good. Just gotta push through.

Do it For You-

I originally didn't want to rap on this song I just wanted to do the chorus, but I liked what I did say. I addressed the trial with Billy Royal Moreland, where we lost very publicly in court. Talked about how that made me psycho and how I kind of held everything in.

Come with Us-

I think this will be a lot of people's favorite song off of Nuchalawoyya. It just has a feel good classic type of vibe to it. I had this beat laying around, we were listening to some of our old freestyles one day and were like dam that beat goes hard, so we put it on and went to work. We recorded this at the Mission. Clay killed it on this song, one of the funnest songs I remember recording haha..

They Got Him Skit-

When we were doing "Seen the Teeth" we were kind of partying at the mission, and somebody nocked on the door crying, saying "Booger's Dead".. This was on Christmas, and you know we lost VK the year before on Christmas. We just said "That ain't real!!", "Booger ain't dead".. and closed the door and kept on recording. Come to find out he really did get stabbed and almost passed away that night, hahaha.. Poor Boog

Seen The Teeth-

As I already said we were kind of partying when this song was made, I like this song though, to the people who look at what I say in this song and judge me for it. Just know that in between albums I spent days so broke I was like "How am I going to eat??", When you get that hungry, and you see somebody eating, it's animal nature to rob them. I spent times where I was so heartbroke seeing everybody else in a relationship, where all the good girls are taken. So Why not rob somebody of their girlfriend?? You can judge me all day but I never claimed to be perfect haha..

Keep On Keeping On-

Vaughn did a song way back in the day where he said "and I'mma keep on keeping on over and over". That was kind of the theme behind this song. Also, people in Alaska forget that we live in Paradise. Like alright I'm having a bad day, but still it's a good day, just look outside.

This song starts off with a cop leaving me a voicemail, at the time I had a warrant out for my arrest, for a robbery that happened in Alaska when I was in Washington. The cop sounded like a creep saying "Dru-P" so I had to put it on the album. We talk about things we were going through, like you can throw all that at me and I'm still going to shine.

One of These Mornings-

My favorite sample on the album the beat just sounds clean. "One of these mornings, it won't be very long, they will look for me, and I'llllll be gonnnne"... We're talking about just getting the F**k up outta here, throwing a smoke bomb and arriving somewhere else.. Like Peace Cuz

Got What it Takes-

Haha Clay wrote this chorus when I was in California competing at Big Sky Conference championships for track. "I got my 1:30 ho's, 2:30 ho's, my 3:30's love to get down" That pretty much explains it, message me and I'll explain more hahaha..

Ak's Finest-

I was kind of in the storm when we did this song. Clay flew out to Washington to work on the album, and we kind of partied for 4 days.. I thought my track season was over and then coach calls me and said I qualified for Conference. I felt bad, I still feel like we both did good on this song. I didn't know what to say so I just wrote the most ridiculous ish I could think of.

Oh yeah and at Conference after 4 days of partying, I raced in 105+ degree weather and PR'd, did way better then I was supposed to. Basically just represented.

Represent-

The theme of this song was kind of like "Bitch Girl" where I just wanted to clown. I said we'd trade off every 8 bars, and we did that throughout the whole song. We started out clowning then each of our verses got better and better throughout the song. I really like the chorus, it's like it'll lift you up. Clay killed it on this song.

Another Day Another Dollar-

Squidward "Another Day another Nickel" haha.. This song was tight I love the beat, something ya'll can native dance to haha. I wrote my verse off of the Ga'leeya song. So I take pieces of that song and throw it into my rap. "Oh heya hey heeya- heyda heytz he's dumb"..

I say some ish on this song but I don't know if ya'll will understand it haha.

Invasion-

This is kind of like American Holocaust. I talk about what happened with natives, and what's going on today. Clay's mad that he never got to kill this beat, but in concerts he's going to perform something on this too.

Doz skit-

This was originally supposed to be a skit where I'd let Dozer do something. Let him do a freestyle or whatever he wanted. Because he been going on stage with us for years and he hasn't been on a single album yet. However, Ish happened during Nuchalawoyya and Doz had to go back to Fairbanks before I got home from the fireline, so it was replaced with a J Buck imitation skit haha..

Time Away-

This is a remix with Clay on it. You can youtube Dru-P Time Away to see the original.

Falling (R.I.P. VK)-

Had to dedicate a song to Vaughn, my verse talks about the days when he first passed, Clays verse is about getting back up from falling. Cuz there ain't no victims around here!

My Momma-

Had to show love to our momma's. Cuz we never really had no Dad's growing up.

Plus both Clay and I have had to listen to people talk bad about or mom's when we were young, you never really forget what people say. This song is showing or mom's some love. Love conquers all.

Sweet Dreams-

This is a bonus track, On my part I talk about dreaming I'm still with Paula. I was having dreams at the time of her, and it was kind of pissing me off haha, and then I go on to talk about how my dreams fuel me. It kind of has a native drum beat to it..

Outro-

Nuchalawoyya song, and then a late elder explains that the song was made by 2 guys coming down on a raft. And how she'll never forget the song they sang, when she was just 12 years old.

What I think about Nuch as a whole

I say Nuchalawoyya is us, it's empowerment, coming together. I guess I just wanted my production to sound fresh throughout it all. It's kind of like a Clipse album, the first time you hear it you might have two or three songs that you like. Then on the second and third listen you like the other songs, and pretty soon you're going to be feeling it.

But just like the Clipse albums, not everybody is going to feel it. Nuchalawoyya doesn't have a "Better Days", it doesn't have a single that stands out, I think the whole album stands out. It's like "For the Fam" where we didn't worry about making the songs appeal to everyone, we just had fun making songs.

I know I got a big fanbase of 12 year olds who wanna hear me talk about girls, and do songs that read like a diary. Like awwe Poor Dru-P :( hahaha.. I'm worried that Nuch only has like 4 songs like that, but at the same time it's more focused then the songs that my myspace fanbase is used of hearing. Also another complaint I have is there aren't enough story songs. But it's all good as long as we can paint a picture

Nuchalawoyya is a collection of anthems that describe how we're living. The good, the bad, competition, girls, eha ha na ha, family, culture, everything. It's the most native album that has ever been made. It might cure cancer. Onee' Nuchalawoyya

I hope ya'll listen, we worked hard on this. Hi haters, sorry for the hiatus. But we're back now. Theme music, Feel Good Music, let's start the movement...

hhaha

Dru-P

A problem of mine

So when I broke up with P I was really messed up, I wasn't sleeping, I was kind of crazy. One night after we had an argument on the phone I just kind of hid out in my room.

That night Sharon called me up, and she tried to talk to me on myspace too, but I was just really heartbroke I didn't want to talk to anybody. The next day I found out that Sharon had passed away, and I felt like it was my fault. Like I should have answered the phone, that all just added to the storm that I was in.

Clay came through and we did the second half of our album, Dedication in like 5 days. That pretty much got me out of the storm for a week but as soon as he left I was back to not sleeping again.

Eventually I started calling girls up and talking to them, and for some reason that helped me to sleep at night.. That lead to some drama because some girls would catch feelings for me when all I was doing was talking to them, but I mean it helped me to get through everything.

Now that it's been like 3 years since I dated P I don't need to talk on the phone anymore to go to sleep, but occasionally I'll have a night where I feel like I need to talk... The only problem is, now I don't have anybody to call..

So I'm looking for a new line up.. Because I don't even have any prospects haha

Dru-P